something's getting in my way and its about to break. damn those tests and homework. i cant believe im actually failing all the tests ive taken in this term. ALL okay. im so traumatized by it. when i got back geog today, i realised i failed i didnt know what to react. that explains my bad mood nurin. plus i always thought rainy days were good. but somehow today's rainy day sucked like Shit. couldnt think of anything productive. no mood to study. O Lord, Help ME!

i seriously dont want to continue failing like this anymore. Darn! go compare this term's results with last term's. CONTRASTING. and this coming wed's chem and emath. my, sadly ive no confidence in both of them. even maths. i Had to scream. SERIOUSSSSLLLLY.


sorry kathleen for screaming into your ear, it wasnt on purpose and i didnt know it was that loud. well it was really a shock to see uhhhhh.

i never knew things would actually turn out like this. months ago i couldnt imagine this kind of scenario but now i do. Well, promises were meant to be broken. i didnt expect much from this anyway. since its like that now i cant do anything to actually change everything. much less, trying to change it. guess its like that. hah. you dont seem to realise that i cant do this on my own.


believe me, its alright.
i can do this on my own.

RIGHT, wth who am i kidding?




now there's a lot of commitments. neglecting my studies maybe? which definitely has Severe consequences. im just so glad my parents didnt say much when i got a freaking 6.5/30 for amaths. and all the yadayada. just that i didnt tell them. Hopefully the teachers wont say anything bad during MTP session this friday. ARGH there's chinese oral tmr. damn have you ever heard me speak chinese? hurrrrrrr dont answer that. im so gonna screw this other test. which adds on the alreadysuperlong list.


OKAY IVE SLACKED ENOUGH. BYE. come on, watch me suffer slowly, bit by bit. till then.